Now I could go on and on about how young I look for 50 (LOL) and maybe even talk about the things I have accomplish in my 50 years, or about how I don't look 50, or about how old my young children make me feel sometimes, because I had kids later in life, or about how young I look for 50 or about the things I have yet to accomplish in my remaining years or about how great I look for 50. Instead I will focus this blog on how much God's has done for me in this half a century AND about how great I look for 50! Lol!
While several scriptures come to mind, as I think about this day, I will share just a few of my top ones, as it pertain to how much God has done for me in these 50 years. I have slightly edited one word in the following verse, to fit my case more specifically:
1. I have been young, and now am old(er); yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread. (Psalms 37:25)
In this short span of time, 50 years, by comparison to how old David may have been when he wrote this, I can also say with confidence, this can serve as the theme verse for my life. In just the last 7 years, I have become a single parent, having lost a marriage that I thought would go til death or rapture, lost a job that I was sure to be the career from which I'd retire, suffered great financial hardships, from which I continue to climb from under today, and wavered in my trust in God to supply all that my children and I need to survive. However, more importantly, in my 50 years, I have been protected, provided for, comforted, encouraged and saved by Grace, by an Almighty God, who was not surprised or caught off guard by any of my woes.
Through all my struggles, He was there. In my doubt, He was there, in my fear and uncertainty, He was there, when I failed and fail Him, he was and is there, when I complained, He was there. Still today, on my 50th birthday, He continues to be there.
Somehow, and those of you who are familiar with the God I serve, can understand what I mean when I say, SOMEHOW, all that I have needed, His hand hath provided, Great is His faithfulness unto me.
When I lost my job, my bills, though sometimes paid late (LOL) never went unpaid. My children and I never went hungry. My mortgage continued to be paid, through so many doors He opened. Today, the job I have, is not what I set out to do careerwise, but God opened this door and, not only do my children get to attend one of the greatest schools there is, but my job allows me the opportunity to impart into the world's next generation, all while being near my kids. And although, I don't necessarily get to be a writer as a career, I get to write really long Facebook post like this, from time to time (LOL).
In my 50 years, I can proudly say I am a Veteran, having retired from the greatest branch there is, ARMY, after honorably serving 23 years!
I have been blessed with two beautiful children, who often give me a run for my mental money. Lol! They are both smart, intelligent children, but most importantly, they have both given their lives to Christ. That was my biggest desire where my children were concerned. Now, on to living it out and going to college of course … Lol.
As of my more recent blessings, I have embarked on a new (old) relationship, which has made me so very happy. It feels good to be loved and important, after a long stretch of “All about my kids.” You single parents will understand that. As we take it one day at a time, I look forward to getting to know him again and simply enjoying time with him. And maybe even….
As I look back over these 50 years, I can attest to the fact that trusting God has been my sanity container. Yes, I have wavered in my faith. I have been fearful that things were not going to be OK. But, in every situation, circumstance, trial or tribulation, God has NEVER moved. When things don't seem to be going the way I think they should, I need only trust Him, which brings me to my final birthday verse, my favorite Scripture, mainly because I have to remind myself of it so much on this journey called life:
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
If you've read this far, thank you! Just wanted to share my thoughts on this important day! And let's not forget share how young I look for 50. LOL!!!
